How to tell if you're ready for kids...

if you can survive babysitting a sick one!! Not that Little P wasn't his cute little self, just not as happy as usual. And the nose was quite a bit runnier. And the wake up call in the AM was a little bit earlier! I'm not ready for my own yet. That's what I've learnt!!
On another note...I went running tonight! It felt great to get out there and do something. Winter sucks. It hinders my running which hinders my mood. I'm glad to be out there again.
On the food front. I have followed my points today and am determined not to go above my goal weight. We'll see if I can accomplish that. It seems to be a busy week again so I need to concentrate on following my food plan and getting in some exercise. I WILL do it. Really.
B- ww bagel with ff cream cheese (3)
L- costco french onion soup (4), kiwi yogurt (1)(LOL Jen, I just bought that source selection last week! I love ALL the kinds!!) , strawberries (1)
S- 4 melba (1) with 2 tbsp hummus (0)
D- meatless kabobs (3), ff fries (3) with salsa (0) and cheese (2), salad with strawberries and blue cheese (2)

Where does the time go??

Good Friday = family over to my house for fish and chips
Saturday = helping with wine bottling for other wedding + drinks and dinner
Sunday = family Easter get together and staying over in P town
Monday = getting cleaned up and organized for work week
Tuesday = WORK + candle party that I couldn't get out of (7-10pm!!!)
Wednesday = WORK + J's mom's B day
Thursday = WORK + baking and cooking for Jay's B-day at our house on Friday
Friday = 1/2 day of WORK (I can't handle it!!!) + further prep for B-day and prep for Little P to stay at our house all weekend!!!!
Sat/Sun = Babysitting cutest nephew in the world (drawback - he has a cold and hasn't been sleeping well :(
Monday = WORK AGAIN!!!!!!

I think I may have lost my sanity at some point along the way!!!!! Actually, I'm sure of it.

hmmm...

following in the footsteps of Jen, I will not be weighing in tomorrow. It will just push me down further and at this point, I don't see the value in it. We had an extremely busy weekend full of family, friends and FOOD. We also had J's Mom's B-day tonight and when it's tradition to order in chinese, what could I do???
Onwards and downwards (hopefully!).

As expected,

I'm up 0.4lbs putting me exactly at goal weight. I will need to behave somewhat this weekend to prevent a gain next week. Talks have begun regarding the start of running season again so that couldn't come at a better time!
Anyway, I could NOT be happier that it is a long weekend and I am DONE work for 4 days!! I'm having a glass of wine as I type. And there might be a few more to come :)
Happy Easter to all and to all a good night!!!

Just keep saying it...

I am not hungry, I am not hungry, I am NOT hungry!!!! I'm not sure what I am...snacky I guess. Bored? I just want to eat.
I have to be honest, I'm not really expecting any downward movement on the scale tomorrow. This whole snacky thing happened last night too and I ended up having a bowl of stawberry medley all bran (i'm addicted) and some 100 cal hostess cupcakes that I have been hoarding for WAY too long. Stale city! But did that stop me? Nope, ate all three of them.
Food today:
B- ww bagel with cheez whiz (3)
L- mushroom and brie soup (3), cukes and yellow pepper with hummus (0), yogurt (1), strawberries (1)
D- baked potato with ff sour cream and feta cheese (5), garlic roasted brussel sprouts with balsamic reduction (0) - I agree, very strange dinner. Imagine if I ever get preggers???
S- strawberry medley cereal (2) with 1/2c. milk (1), cravings cheesecake (1), fruitsations (1)
Now I should stop eating. We'll see if I can accomplish that!
TGI Thursday...well, almost!!

Whew!

That was close! The channel that I normally watch Biggest Loser on seems to be "out" - damn cable. But fortunately, it appears to be on another channel! Go Bob!
K, just going to report my food for today since la show is already on.
B- ww toast and egg (3)
L- mushroom and brie soup (3), ryvita crackers (1), hummus (0), yogurt (1), strawberries (1)
S- 100 cal smartpop (1)
D- cheater lasagna (veggie ground meat (1), catelli smart pasta (3), cottage cheese (1), cheese (2)), salad with strawberries and blue cheese (2)
S2 - ???

Thanks Jen!

For your loving comments :) That just needed to be said "outloud"!
We made a trip to Costco this weekend, so my food today is a wee bit more exciting than usual! Sadly, I did not spot the Biggest Loser workout. However, it was extremely busy so I may have just missed it in my frustration of trying to actually get people to move out of the way!
Today was a typical Monday. I was tired and bummed that the weekend was already over!
My food for today was something like this:
B- hard boiled egg (2), ww toast (1)
L- mushroom and brie soup (3), ryvita crackers (1), yogurt (1), strawberries (1)
S- veggies and dip (1), cravings cheesecake (1)
D- veggie burger (2), bun (3), french fries (3), spicy green beans (1)
S- 2 after eight chocolates (2)

The reality check

Ok, I'd like to start off this post by saying that this is my perception of me. It may be skewed but I think everyone's own perception of themselves is to some degree.
I weigh 147lbs (a total loss of 31lbs). My goal when I started this whole thing was 150lbs. Since then, I had decided that it would be good to be under 150 and that would be my trigger number (ie. when I get there, DO something about it!). I have maintained my weight since Oct. 19/07 - not once have I hit 150lbs although I have been super close!! I wear S-M shirts. I actually bought a size 4 dressy shirt recently. I also bought S pyjamas from La Senza. My pants are about a size 8. The dress that I bought from Le Chateau for the fall wedding I went to...Small. My wedding dress is a size 8.
That is all compelling evidence that I need to be happy. I'm there. I've accomplished what I have wanted to. Why does it not seem like enough though??? That is the question. When I got to 150 lbs, why wasn't that enough? Why do I now feel like 142 is the magic number? And if I were to get there, then what?
I need to stop obsessing with the numbers. But I'm scared. I've read that people that weigh themselves daily, are more likely to maintain. That, to me, is an important fact.
I need to get it through my head that I don't need to lose more weight. But I see things in the mirror that I still don't like.
I don't know what the answers are to any of this. I'm hoping this is just a touch of the winter blues that is dragging me down. It just needed to be said.

Ahhhh, that looks better!

That weight loss ticker has been stressing me out all week!! I'm glad to see that cute little scale move in the right direction this week! I'm down 1.2lbs. I don't have a problem with that. I've been thinking a lot lately about "my goal". There might be a "reality check" post coming soon as I've been thinking about it forever. Stay tuned for that one!
I'm looking forward to tonight. It's our Thursday nighter in P-town. There will be non-ww food and wine. There, I've confessed. I'm having a PLANNED cheat night!
Good luck tonight, Jen! And buy yourself a regular chocolate bar!!!! Cheat with me :)

Tzatziki sauce, where are you?

I'm pretty sure I'm losing it. I was excited about my ryvita crackers and tzatziki sauce for lunch today. So I went to pack my lunch this AM and tore the fridge apart...no tzatziki to be found. I went so far as to check my trunk to see if it had fallen out on my way home from the grocery store. No luck. Then I see my receipt on the kitchen table...I didn't buy tzatziki!!!! What a moron! I seriously remember standing in front of it at the store and would have bet my life that I bought some. Bizarre!! Then to top things off, I was making my tea to take to work as well as my crystal light and what do I do? Pour the crystal light packet into my tea that already has a tea bag and milk in it! Gross! Wouldn't you know, I was already running late! I am losing it.
Food today:
B- ww bagel and ff cream cheese (3)
L- 0pt. soup (0), ryvita sourdough rye crackers (1) topped with cottage cheese (2) and hot peppers (0) - it was no tzatziki but still good!!, yogurt (1) with strawberries and pineapple (1)
S- ryvita crackers (1) dipped in ff salad dressing (1)
D- Flatout pizza with sauce, pineapple, hot pepper, yellow pepper, tomatoes and low fat cheese (3), Salad with feta (1)
S- healthy choice chocolate pudding (2)
S2???

Planks

Yes, surprisingly enough, I just did some excercise! And it hurt! I think I bruised my elbows trying to do the crazy planks. I love hardwood but it's not the greatest if you're trying to do sit-ups/push-ups and planks! Oh well. I did something!
I did some grocery shopping after work today and got some fresh veggies and some strawberries and pineapple. I can't wait for strawberry season! I discovered that shopping at 5pm is not the greatest idea though. Besides having to walk the aisles 3 times over to go back and get stuff, I also ended up putting a lot in my cart that I didn't need to because I was super hungry!! The good thing is, I didn't wolf it down when I got home. I will save it for when I deserve a treat and portion it correctly! SO there!
Food today:
B- ww bagel with ff cream cheese (3)
L- 0pt progresso soup from the states (0!), egg salad sandwich (3), yogurt (1), raspberries and mango (1)
S- Melba toast (2)
D- spicy mango basa filet (3), french fries (3), spicy green beans (1)
S- Old Dutch Creamy Dill Bakes (4) - went grocery shopping at Country Market...new find!! We'll see how they turn out!!

5 day weekends?

If only! And then 2 day work weeks. Hmmm, I think I could get elected with this platform!
I've had a head cold since last Tuesday and I'm still feeling like my head might explode, daily! Did this cause me to rest and take it easy on the weekend? Nope.
Friday - looked at a hall for a Jack and Jill. Went out for dinner and had some drinks and folded up some invitations.
Saturday - laid low during the day, then went to dinner at my cousin's. Played Wii. Had drinks. Folded more invitations.
Sunday - had the Cliff family over for dinner. Therefore, cleaned house, made dinner/dessert. Played with little P. Had drinks. Clocks had gone forward. Felt SO tired. Did not sleep one wink.
Monday - worked with exploding head! Sneezed every couple minutes. Good times.
I definitely have hit the winter blahs...big time. I cannot stand the snow and just want it to be spring already. That really does not help in getting motivated to excercise.

Food over the weekend was not terrible. Drinks didn't help. No activity, yet again.
Food today:
B - corn bran (2), 1/2c. milk (1)
L- ww bagel (2), cup of soup (1), salad (0), yogurt (1) with mango and raspberries (1)
S- cottage cheese (2), melba toast (2), ww bread (1) - yes, I was hungry!
D - veggie chili (4), whole wheat bun (3), ww pumpkin pie (2)

What a concept.

Turns out that one good day does NOT negate 6 very bad days :( Quelle surprise! Gain of 2 lbs this week. Well deserved. I don't have much to say. No excuses. Nobody to blame except moi.
What else is there to say???

What NOT to eat...

Is there a show for that? If there was a video camera in my house this week, they would have hours of footage to sort through! Do you think one good day can outweigh 6 bad??? Funny how I told myself I didn't care for the entire 6 days and then today rolls around and guess what??? Apparently I care! Better late than never?
Jen has reminded me that I need to go get some healthy, colourful food and that will help. I also think if it would stop being WINTER, that would help too. Unfortunately I do not control the weather. In fact, I've been trying to figure out for the past month or so, why I live in Ontario. Damn family ties! Ok, now all I can think of is Micheal J. Fox!
Oy, I'm very scattered today! I was home sick yesterday and I ate everything but the kitchen sink. Unfortunately my sickness is a sinus cold and doesn't seem to affect my appetite. Today I went to work, not because I was feeling better but because I couldn't eat my house there.
Food today:
B- ww bagel with cream cheese (3)
L- Salad with feta cheese (1), cottage cheese (2), yogurt with raspberries and mango (1.5)
S- ww bread and cheez whiz (2)
D- tomato basil veggie burger (2), ww bun (2), ff fries (3), peas (1)
S- veggies and dip (1), yogurt with raspberries and mango and ff cool whip and crushed up corn bran!! (3) - I was trying to make it taste like a cheesecake or something!! Yes, I'm very scattered...

It's like I've never seen food...

I don't know what is going on here. I'm a pig, I guess! I just can't seem to get full. I will spare you the exact details. Just know that there were pita chips, cereal, and cookies involved. It looks like salad for dinner. Or maybe nothing! I could excercise...but that is likely wishful thinking.
This week is NOT going well :(